It was a day full of regrets, errors, sacrifice, pain, pressure and rotten disappointment. I was at mommy's house kanina and my main agenda there is to discuss the wedding programs and some business with kuya pj and ate angel but since they weren't there, i decided to talk with them nalang since kuya pj and angel wasn't around. Things went blurry and unpredictable, i even didn't mind on my voice's tone and hindi narin ako na bother if mabastos ko sila or what so ever and im really sorry for that. We had a lot of disagreements on some things related to the wedding, we discussed about the seat plans, the bridal entourage and many things which some of it are left puzzled and unsolved. As they were discussing and inferring with each other i just felt tired and pressured at the spur of the moment i was teary eyed and i walked out and went to the bathroom and there cried, a lot. Manang even handed me tissues and i thank her for that. Maybe it was just pagod, puyat and stress and pressure and... ang daming pang and. I was really disappointed that the two seems to be so careless about their own wedding. I wish god somehow will pat their backs and have the hint of helping me. I don't want to decline the jobs they are giving me because i don't want to turn myself out and disappoint them. Haiii.
-Bash
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