This is indeed a happy day! Well, I'm happy and partially okay. One reason. Because everything I'm worried about is step by step getting better. My problems with the barkada. Anjo invited me to hang around at gateway during lunch time. I said "Okay I'll be right there, I'll just finish the stuffs here in the office" On my way to Gateway, few things and questions came passing my mind. First, will my presence there end up a dead kid? Second, will I get the chance to make them laugh again. Third, will they join in me in their plans. And lastly, do they even know I'm coming? These are some of the things I'm slightly and hesitantly worried about. As soon as I got to Taco Bell, Gateway, Jaymie was not present in the table, sitting there was Alex who was like glue eyed in his laptop, Pam who's also checking her mails and Anjo who's quietly eating. They allowed me to see something I didn't expect. At first I just thought they were busy with school stuffs and yes they are really busy. I said "I'll just grab something to eat" Before I went to the ordering counter I zipped off my bag, grabbed and offered them my left over chocolates that I haven't finished munching in the office that early morning. I handed them over the chocolates in my hand with joy and they exchanged it with a smile as response of appreciation. I felt happy. The moment I got to the ordering counter, I immediately said what I wanted to eat because I'm starving to death. That same moment I noticed a person touched my back at pat it, I thought it was just another hungry customer who's been waiting patienly on the queue line waiting for the counter lady to fetch him a bone. When I faced right... I was like OH MY GOD! It was Jaymie! She said "Bash, I miss you" My mind and heart wanted to cry because at last I've seen her after a long time. That same day we went to Starbucks and grabbed coffee, smoke here smoke there, chit chats and joking around, I was completely relieved. My negative thoughts flew away. I'm expecting that they'll ignore me and make me feel I don't belong but then, It happened the other way around. I'm totally glad and happy because they're making me feel better now and I'm thankful because of that. Maybe it's the right mixture of bash they want. The mixture of bash that is not too serious but not too happy, not too loud and not too mellow. Not too offensive and yet funny.-Bash
